I woke up this morning feeling foggy. Eyes throbbing, nose congested, and sounding like a bad imitation of sad bull frog. It appears that I was grabbed in the middle of the night by a dreaded cold. Not sure if you one would agree with me, but when I am sick, everything is presented out of context. The slightest, innocent comment can be transformed into a life altering moment. With that awareness in mind, I gravitated to isolation. I rallied just enough to drop the youngest at school and come home to a warm bed ready for my next step in my emotional cleanse……..the time out. You see, I know that illness makes me cranky and when I am cranky I react, am impulsive, and rarely pause. So, knowing this about myself allows me to focus on healing physically as my emotional well-being can wait.
At first, it was annoying to be in a timeout. I felt frustrated at what appeared as a step backwards, but then it occurred to me that if I didn’t do the next right thing, it would be more than one step, it would be several hundred. My emotions hang in a delicate balance when my body is not up to par. Being gentle with myself is just another indication of how far I have come in the process of putting myself first. So for today, I will rest, hydrate, and isolate. It is better for all of humanity if I simply pause.