It is interesting the feelings that arise when I share something intimate with a group of virtual strangers. I am not one to vomit my personal drama or tell private stories, but when I feel strongly about a topic, that opens the door for me. For years, I have walked the path of gaining back my serenity. Actually, when I say gaining back, I really mean finding it, as I don’t think it was ever in my presence. Last night, I shared something very private in a group setting, and instantly, felt “naked”. Crickets could be heard. Of course, I instantly wanted to pull the words out of the air and insert them back in my mouth.
Keep in mind, this wasn’t anything awful, but it did break my anonymity, so to speak. I berated myself all the way home. Wondering if I should have just kept my mouth shut. Then I realized that by not sharing, I wasn’t be authentic. The discussion inspired strong feelings within me. It is in my nature to share my experience, strength, and hope, so I surrendered to that nudge.
My vulnerability brought up a lot of uncomfortable feelings, but what I experienced afterwards, was nonjudgmental. In fact, the feedback was supportive and provided me with the freedom of being comfortable with who I have become. In essence, once I surrendered, my vulnerability become a cloak of peace.
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