Square Peg ● Round Hole







I can roll up into a ball of fear if I allow it.   There is always that voice inside my head that tells me to run and hide.   If I conform to old behavior, all my work of changing the person that I am will simply vanish.   Today, is a perfect example of allowing fear to overwhelm me.    There was a situation, all too familiar, dealing with finances.

Money is the root of all evil, or so has been said.   I have been through times where I have had next to nothing to being fully abundant.   There have definitely been ebbs and flows.   For me, it is all about being gentle with myself and knowing, whatever is going on in any aspect of my life, it is going to be fine.  It works out in the most perfect way.  Now, when I am in the midst of the turmoil, it is difficult to see, but if I step back and look at the situation, I can usually find some sort of peace.   That is completely new for me as I use to let it completely take over my being.   Stomach clenched and brain racing, I would lay out all the options.  None of which were viable.

We all have our own tapes that play over and over in our heads.   It is if we have been programmed to only see the negative when there is so much positive around us.    It is so easy for me to twist the obvious into something that doesn’t even exist.   Seriously, I am my own worst enemy.  The obstacle that stands in the way of my serenity.  Instead, I have allowed the weeds of fear to wrap themselves around my tranquility.  As always, I am a work in progress.   Those tiny hiccups that can reverse my growth are becoming few and far between, however, they do still exist.  The beauty is that I can release myself from the fear and know that everything will work out in perfect order.   The echo isn’t quite as prominent today.