Triggers

This week has certainly been a lesson for me emotionally, spiritually, and physically.   Dealing with flooding issues along with unexpected actions by other individuals has given me plenty to ponder.   Not a big shock that when I am physically tired, those tiny triggers can evolve and take over my peace of mind.   I have no control over what people say and do.  Honestly, when they create their own drama, I don’t need to take the lead in their play.

Others “stuff” isn’t my business and while I have been affected by their emotional residue, I know the next right thing to do is to step back.   With the emotional cleanse that I have been doing, I have learned that many relationships either are beneficial or they are not.  I can’t force them to be any different, so I move on and seek those bonds that empower me.    I can move on, but what really triggers me are when the actions of others have an emotional affect on those that I love.  While my brain knows that everyone works through hurt and disappointment in different ways, my heart wants to fix it.

My lesson is to be the example I want to see in others.   I can’t expect people to operate as I do.  That, my friends, is completely unrealistic.  What I can do, is keep the focus on me.   I can work towards giving an honest effort into understanding that the actions of others are simply a reflection of them.   While there is grief attached to making powerful changes in relationships, there is also a sense of freedom.    It is the process of being true to me.