Square Peg ● Round Hole







Going on week 3 of tweaking my diet and exercise model and I have to say, it is exhausting.     It reminds me of the beginning stages of a relationship where you want this new person to see only the best of you.  While I am maintaining a positive attitude, I am also trying not to resemble a crazy person.  You see, this fifty year old body doesn’t respond to diet and exercise the way it used to.    I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore.

I ditched the sweetener in my coffee, but ate a piece of salted caramel cheesecake after dinner one night.   It’s complicated.    Back in the good old days, I could eat that cheesecake and bounce right back.  Now, it takes several days of recovery, so I simply wipe the crumbs off my mouth and start again.

I am not giving up.   Despite not seeing a big difference in terms of weight loss, I do feel better.   Society dictates that everyone should be rewarded for simply trying and while I don’t necessarily agree with that, it would be nice if my body sent me flowers with a card saying, “Thanks for your effort.  It is appreciated”.    My expectations are low as she is a little bitchy.

So, I will continue to get to know this virtual stranger.   Taking the time to figure out what works and what doesn’t.    The way I have been researching diet and exercise for women over 50, I will probably be an expert by the time this is all said and done.  In the meantime, I will take it one day at a time and hope my body doesn’t take out a restraining order.