No one should ever start their birthday week off burying their mother, yet here we are. I will say I survived my first birthday without her. Maybe it was because we are so busy with the details of settling her estate and I am decently distracted. Or perhaps, I am simply numb. Honestly, I haven’t stopped in weeks just to breathe. That’s my goal, anyway and it starts tonight when I get to celebrate one of my soul sisters big 5-0. Living is a forward motion and while my new normal is an adjustment, I am fully supported by many beautiful people.
I am learning a lot as we travel the road of estate settling. This is my first time at the rodeo and it is a lot of information to say the least. One disadvantage of social media, is the insane amount of realtors that will reach out through messenger trying to secure our business. No condolences, just their offer of their services. Well, consider yourself blocked from my messenger. You might be an amazing realtor but you need to work on your approach. You have now officially been added to my list and that is the last place you need to be.
Honestly, I would not be walking through this with any grace at all if I didn’t have the support of my family and friends. It really is the best reminder that I never do life alone. What a gift that is. In the meantime, I will take it one day at a time remembering that grief is a marathon not a sprint. There will be ebbs and flows, but I have the best people around me to help me walk through it. Grateful, indeed.