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I took a leap of faith recently to explore an opportunity a little out of my comfort zone. In passing, I had told Brian that I was contemplating going back to school to get a Masters in Counseling or something similar. It might seem a bit odd since I have an aversion to most humans, but there is a large part of myself that enjoys helping others find a solution. Notice I didn’t say fixing people because that isn’t what brings me satisfaction partly because you can’t fix others. You can try. I did for years, but the funny thing is, I ended up fixing myself instead. That is a little more gratifying. It’s like an extreme person makeover the Allison edition. Work in progress, friends.

Anyway, what started out as a thought morphed into a job opportunity that would allow me to help others without spending an obscene amount of money on tuition. The job entails taking calls from clients that could be anything from referring them to needed resources to crisis Intervention. The job isn’t fluff. It is a job that will challenge me and hopefully benefit those in need.

I haven’t had a job interview in seventeen years. The last one was a bit confusing as I wasn’t clear if I actually had the job or not. (Long story. The interviewer wasn’t the best communicator and I probably, didn’t listen well, so it was mutual issue. I did get the job, by the way.) This time, I felt confident and secure that even if I didn’t get it, it was a great opportunity to dust off my interviewing skills. It was effortless. I didn’t feel intimidated or nervous. I treated it as merely meeting a new person and getting to know them. A week later, I was offered the job. It’s part-time and remote which is ideal since I still want to write and volunteer with Hosparus. It is the best of all worlds.

The response of me pursuing this has been mostly positive. There are a few asking “Why?”. Why would I want to work in this particular field? Why am I getting a job? Some people don’t say much at all. That’s cool. I am not doing this for anyone else but me. If I don’t enjoy it, I have choices, but since my word for the year has been “intentional”, it would do me a disservice if I didn’t honor this universal nudge.

I am still laughing at the response from someone when I shared my news. As an individual asked, “why would I pick this particular field”, I didn’t have to respond because the person next to me, bellowed, “because she is a fucking good person”.

2025 will start with a leap of faith which blankets me with excitement but also a bit of anxiety. New things are scary, but I know that as long as I follow these universal nudges, I get to say “yes” to things that push me. That is growth.