Sometimes I question whether God scammed me on my brain power. Most of the time, I appear to have it together, but then there are those other moments, I question my brain function. Here is one example.
When Brian had his coronary event at the beginning of the year, people were very generous. From bringing meals to care packages, we were certainly spoiled by some wonderful friends. One care package in particular arrived with soup, rolls, and various self-care items. Those self-care items were all lavender based – candle, eye-mask, lotion, and lip balm. While it was designated for my spouse, I felt in my heart, that those lavender treats were calling my name. After all, can anyone actually see Brian wearing an eye-mask? I mean, if he did, good for him, but I know after 35 years of being with someone, what their limits are. You guessed it. I claimed them as my own. I can’t ignore the powerful pull.
I am wearing the eye-mask every night. It has definitely helped me sleep better with the soothing scent of lavender and actually decreases the dark circles under my eyes. Bonus! I know you are like, “Get to the point, Allison. What is the miracle?”. Patience, friends. I am getting there.
There isn’t a night where I don’t wake up and need to use the restroom ,due to the fact that my boys used my bladder as a trampoline during their tenure in my womb. Every time I go to do that, I try to open my eyes and there is nothing but darkness. For a few seconds, panic rises through my body until I get the message, “Hey, dumb ass, you aren’t blind. You are wearing an eye-mask.”. Then I breathe a sigh of relief. This seems to be an ongoing issue that I am hoping will resolve soon. Sometimes quickly. Sometimes slowly. In my case, it is a very slow realization.
My learning curve relies on my brain actively engaging. That is a work in progress. In the meantime, I will just be over here sniffing lavender and remembering I am not blind. I am just wearing an eye-mask.
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